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8th-Jan-2013 09:21 pm - taupe
I work in a building that i used to pass by as a kid and just hate. instinctively hated. a victim to the kind of 80s fashion that informed album covers for the j. geils band. just complete bullshit. it looked irresponsibly out of place to me since i first saw it, which was in the early 90s.
so now i work in this building, and i've taken our intersection with a gamey acceptance that accompanies unlikely outcomes that aren't ultimately remarkable. of course i'd work here, of course this is how the arc goes. oh well

now a new property management company bought the building. they're painting it brown. it maches the brown buildings on the other side of the street. now it isnt just ugly, it's boring, and it's so much worse.

what is it with new developments that think taupe is the best possible idea for some hellstrip in the middle of the hills? i "get" that it's the least offensive color so that you'd actually lease the place, but where did everyone's pride go? most of this state looks like shit and it really didn't have to.
3rd-Jan-2013 10:27 pmHONK HONK
what a stupid fucking post

kinda perfect to show "what happens" actually


least i got a photo done!
Photobucket Pictures, Images and Photos

i've been fascinated lately with links between space (the vast expanse) and nature (the macro). the tendrils of a new galaxy look like the neurons in the brain. the shimmering froth of an ocean look like a nebula. the flowers looks like stars...
3rd-Jan-2013 07:55 pm - 2012
2012 was a tempest that failed to color the world; there was a pronounced sense of normalcy as i sent myself to crash into my own life. it was mostly a bad year full of hiding and drunken crises and a dream of harmony, but the steps i've made are so huge, the results of which are still hidden and percolating until "the time is right."

i've rediscovered my anger, my voice, my own words. the frayed bits that make people avert their eyes and feel embarrassed over my own excesses. writing feels more natural, even if i'm not any better at it. i'm no longer struggling to get outside of myself, but struggling to get outside of everything else. i'm intact again. i've thought about suicide more, because ceasing to exist has become an option again. i wouldnt, but it's an example of how certain extremities creep back in again... raw material scattered on a floor waiting to be used. something exciting. i used to shut up about things that mattered, because the despair permeated everything, and now i speak out about it.
28th-Dec-2012 07:06 pm - 2010-2012
so far, 2011 is the year to beat, but this decade has been pretty fucking awesome so far.

LIST LIST LIST, i hear you cry.


1. Burial – Street Halo/Kindred/Truant
2. Andy Stott – Passed Me By/We Stay Together
3. Actress – Splaszh
4. Shed – The Traveller
5. James Blake – James Blake
6. Machinedrum – Room(s)
7. Sigur Ros – Valtari
8. British Sea Power – Valhalla Dancehall
9. Death Grips – The Money Store
10. Everything by Kevin McPhee
11. Everything by Blawan
12. Kode9 and Spaceape – Black Sun
13. Kreng - Grimoire
14. Shining – Blackjazz
15. Robag Wruhme – Thora Vukk
16. Actress – R.I.P
17. Bjork - Biophilia
18. Darkstar– North
19. Colin Stetson – New History Warfare Vol 2: Judges
20. Daniel Bjarnason - Processions
21. Andy Stott – Luxury Problems
22. Africa Hitech – 93 Million Miles
23. Alva Noto – Univrs
24. Surgeon – Breaking the Frame
25. Godspeed You Black Emperor – Allelujah! Don't Bend, Ascend!
26. Jam City – Classical Curves
27. Mount Kimbie – Crooks and Lovers
28. Paul Cary - Ghost of a Man
29. Sepalcure – Sepalcure
30. Zomby – Dedication
31. MIA - MAYA
32. Liars - WIXIW
33. Cyclo - id
34. Rustie - Glass Swords
35. Mogwai - Hardcore Will Never Die, But You Will
36. Interpol - Interpol
37. Kanye West - MBDTF
38. Ido Govrin - Moraine
39. Holly Herndon - Movement
40. The Field - Looping State of Mind
24th-Dec-2012 08:50 pm - METASTASIZED
mom and i went to lunch on friday and admitted how we really dont give a shit about christmas this year but we're doing it because gifts (as usual, but moreso). it is exciting to find good gifts, but i forgot that aspect for most of december as i assumed that if i'm ignoring the holiday routine then everyone will realize that they don't need to get me anything, which.... isn't true and i'd be an asshole for showing up empty-handed? so i got the siblings some skulls and posters, and the parents some outerwear they'd appreciate.

the more my own thoughts chase their own tails, the more this time of year becomes grotesque. the cheer is a cousin of people who absolve themselves on sunday, and i want to do a lot of things that seem juvenile, but rolling ones eyes while giving to the salvation army is worse.
17th-Nov-2012 11:09 pm - M8 SPACE
7th-Oct-2012 01:28 pm - four corners
"By Phil's thinking, he had died a long time ago: he had died politically in Chicago in 1968 in the violence of the Democratic National Convention; he had died professionally in Africa a few years later, when he had been strangled and felt that he could no longer sing; he had died spiritually when Chile had been overthrown and his friend Victor Jara had been brutally murdered; and, finally, he had died psychologically at the hands of John Train."

29th-Jul-2012 06:42 pm - SUMMERFACE
this summer has been awesome, thanks for asking!

basically, it can be distilled into the following activities:

Secret Projects,
New Friends,
Passionate Hostility,
3 Day Weekends.
I'm participating in James' podcast about action figures even though i know nothing about it. I am, in this scenario, the one to which sports is explained. it's still fun.
Next week i'm going to a book fair and looking to significantly expand my collection. i dont have much at the moment so if there's any books any of you would consider essentials, dont hesitate to recommend it.

Oh, and I'm going to Cleveland at the end of October.
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